Down the Rabbit Hole : Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, Hardback

Down the Rabbit Hole : Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny Hardback

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The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion-and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key-from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's #1 girlfriend.

But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion-including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years-quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies.

Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn't a dream at all-and quickly became her nightmare.

After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide. But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it. In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself. With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars.

A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams-and finding the life we deserve.


  • Format: Hardback
  • Pages: 352 pages
  • Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers Inc
  • Publication Date:
  • Category: Individual actors & performers
  • ISBN: 9780062372109



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As a former “secret” fan of the reality show The Girls Next Door, I was fascinated by the lives these women lived as girlfriends of the infamous Hugh Hefner, playboy extraordinaire. I assumed their lives were filled with mega-parties, wild sex and so many adventures it would be hard to contain them all in a TV show much less a book. Understandably, the TV show was mild, or it would not have been allowed to continue, but I assumed this book would provide me with the real stories behind my favorite bunny on the show – Ms. Madison. It did, but not in the way I imagined it would be living in the infamous Playboy Mansion! It is a wonder she did not go mad with the incessant rules and schedules! Hefner is not playboy; he is an old man trying to stay relevant in a world that has long moved past him! I have to admit – I was rooting for Holly the whole way through and am so glad she has come out on top! I loved her story!