My War Gone By, I Miss It So is a uniquely powerful piece of writing, unparalleled in the genre.
Ex-infantry officer Anthony Loyd arrived in the Balkans hoping to become a war correspondent.
He wanted to see `a real war', and in Bosnia he found one.
The cruelty and chaos of the conflict both appalled and embraced him - the adrenaline lure of the action perhaps the loudest siren call of all.
In the midst of the daily life-and-death struggle among the Serbs, Croatians and Bosnian Muslims he was inspired by the extraordinary human fortitude he discovered.
But returning home, empty and craving adrenaline, he faced his own frailties until he could bear it no longer.