Before I Die, Paperback Book
4.5 out of 5 (2 ratings)


Tessa has just a few months to live. Fighting back against hospital visits, endless tests, drugs with excruciating side-effects, Tessa compiles a list.

It's her Ten Things To Do Before I Die list. And Number One is sex. Released from the constraints of 'normal' life, Tessa tastes new experiences to make her feel alive while her failing body struggles to keep up.

Tessa's feelings, her relationships with her father and brother, her estranged mother, her best friend, her new boyfriend, all are painfully crystallized in the precious weeks before Tessa's time finally runs out. "Before I Die" is a brilliantly-crafted novel, heartbreaking yet astonishingly life-affirming.

It will take you to the very edge.


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Wow, what a powerful novel. Although aimed at YA it is a read for everyone. How can one so young come to terms with their mortality and what do you write on your list of things to do. 'Bucket' lists are in fashion for the living and dying. The difference being that if you are on a short life sentence then you can pretty much put anything on that list and follow it through! How does a parent cope or come to terms with losing a child? The worry and fear that the child will make themselves worse, shorten their time on earth. The strain of being a carer, the fear of afterwards etc. What about the friends and siblings? Youngsters themselves, how do they deal with this. Run away and hide, not be there for the sufferer, pretend it isn't happening and carry on as normal? This book will make you smile, it will make you weep, laugh, cry. Keep the box of tissues to hand.

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I adored Before I Die from start to finish. It was a very quick read, but very worthwhile. I cried, I laughed and I stared in awe. It's a roller coaster of a read, but it was amazing. Definitely made me think about life.

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