Crying into the Saucepan, Paperback Book


Well-known DJ Nikki Hayes has lived most of her life with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), a serious mental disorder marked by a pattern of ongoing instability in mood, behaviour, self-image and functioning.

BPD is also associated with severe functional impairment and high rates of suicide.

Nikki should have been diagnosed aged fifteen the first time she came in contact with the mental health services with anorexia; or aged nineteen, after an attempted suicide; or aged thirty-four when she was diagnosed with post-natal depression.

Instead, each time she was given a different diagnosis, none fully explaining her symptoms or actions.

Nikki believes her illness went undetected for so long because a lot of how she was feeling and acting was easily explained away by lumping it under the umbrella term of `depression', or by simply attributing it to attention seeking or just being a little out of control.

By sharing her story Nikki hopes to help others see that they are not alone and encourage greater support for people suffering with mental health issues in Ireland. #StrongerTogether


  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 256 pages
  • Publisher: The Mercier Press Ltd
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  • Category: Autobiography: general
  • ISBN: 9781781174999

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