Hiding from Reality : My Story of Love, Loss, and Finding the Courage Within, Paperback

Hiding from Reality : My Story of Love, Loss, and Finding the Courage Within Paperback

3.5 out of 5 (2 ratings)


"The terrible truth is that I felt lost without the control that Russell had imposed on me for the nearly six years that we were married.

Disturbingly, I missed that control. I didn't know what to do once I had no one there to tell me how to dress, act, and behave; what to want; and who, even, to be.

In some ways, I missed the abuse. I missed the pain. I missed being scared. Not because I liked feeling any of that. But because it was the life I had become accustomed to, and without anyone to be afraid of, to apologize to, and to cover for, I felt completely lost." Reality hit Taylor Armstrong hard one tragic evening last August when she found the body of her estranged husband, Russell, hanging in his California home.

Fans across the country were shocked at the horrific news of his death and even more shocked to discover that behind the glittering "reality" of Taylor's life on The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills lurked a painful story of emotional and physical abuse that she had been terrified to tell. To the outside world, the Armstrong's lived like royalty, throwing lavish parties-including a memorable tea party for their daughter's fourth birthday-and mingling with their privileged Housewives co-stars.

It was impossible to hide the cracks in their marriage from the cameras forever, though, and their darkest secrets slowly began to seep through the gilded facade.

With searing honesty, Taylor candidly examines her difficult journey from the abusive home in which she was born to the low self-esteem that kept her constantly on the run from herself, to the tumultuous marriage that ended in suicide, and ultimately to her realization that only by sharing her moving story could she help other women.


  • Format: Paperback
  • Pages: 272 pages
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster
  • Publication Date:
  • Category: Memoirs
  • ISBN: 9781476704623



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I'm not exactly sure what to think of this one. It feels like she may have been trying to cash in on her newly found fame. I am not doubting her abuse, I am just saying the timing seems too soon to write a book about it. I still find her husband's death questionable. If her story helps someone who is being abused, than it is good that she wrote it. As far as the story itself, the writing is not that good, it may be a good choice only for fans of her show.

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Disturbing account of what happened to her. As I read it, I kept thinking that she just needs to get out of this relationship. The book is somewhat sanitized. A lot of names other than Russell, the Real Housewives cast, and her daughter Kennedy, have either been changed or eliminated. This was probably for legal reasons. This doesn't take away from the main story. I know from reading this that if Russell were still alive today, this book wouldn't have been written. He would have beaten her up, and maybe even killed her. If she hasn't done this already, I would advise her to give a copy of this book to Kennedy when she's old enough to understand, with the message to read this and avoid the same mistakes Mom made. Media reports say that she's engaged now. I hope this relationship is better.

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